and the year end is nearing, and WAS planning to reflect on the past year and well yeah. talk about random stuff, perhaps emo a bit, mope a bit, ramble a bit, rant a bit. xDDD

BUT!
lo and behold, i go to my dashboard, and i see that i have 1 follower? o.O"!!!
and it's none other than the almighty LEONA! HAHAHAHA leona you're very cute you know xD
and sooo sad T_T YOU NEVER INVITE ME TO your spicata arpa blog, then i can't see anymore T_T and wasn't it philosophy of pistachio chocolates, why become philosophy of spearmints? o.O

anyway, it HAS been a very eventful year, a lot of changes have occured, both internally and externally (as in, i have changed, and many aspects of my life has changed as well XP)
i've learnt a lot, hopefully grown a bit more mature, become fatter (MUCH fatter T_T LEONA SERIOUSLY I'M FATTER THAN MEISZE OK ><") and experienced so many ups and downs that comparing life to a rollercoaster no longer seems that cliche, cause it's just too true xD

made new friends while keeping in touch with old ones; become happier and more positive; love music even more now; become more insociable in other ways, xDDD! hahahaha; missing parts of the past, but looking forward into the future more and more =]; become much slacker and less hardworking, but smarter, LOL; sleeping less (about time, i can't sleep 10 hours/day my whole life); more outgoing (or so everyone says); growing as a christian (yay! =]); can cook a lot of stuff now, whee~!; much much more independent *pats self on back*...

on the flip side, i think i miss some parts of myself that's changed. i think being called "childish" wasn't all that bad most of the time - because there are many things that only a child sees, understands and appreciates. to a child, everything is a miracle, a wonder... =]
and i don't want to lose the awe i feel for His creations, and being able to see His hand in the life around me. i don't want to become oblivious to His presence and become too caught up in the whirlwind of life around me and yup... sometimes it's better to not think too much about anything.
is it better to easily trust someone, or be shrewd? hmmmm...

ok, i'm being very very random.
2008 has been a very good year, and well...

-continued-

it's been a very... meaningful year.
and hmm, have a changed for the better or worse? that really isn't up to me to decide, haha xD
but i feel that for one of the few times in my life, this year i've actually ACCOMPLISHED something, and no, not in terms of grades or anything. it's more like, i've found a kind of fulfillment in my life? and that's just so so so precious to me... ^^
and i've realised that fulfillment doesn't come from external factors, it's just one's own perspective and how one deals with stuff and yup yup!
I WANT A FULFILLING LIFE! =]

and well, with the next year there'll be a lot of changes and i'll need to readapt and gain new skills, but i hope i won't lose myself again amidst the heavy workload/stress/pressure...
because this past year, i've realised that life is so much more than school and homework - that's really just a tiny sliver of living, and that there's just so many other things to enjoy and appreciate in life, and i don't want to lose sight of the more important things which make life truly meaningful =]

i'll really miss 2008! it's coming to an end, but there will always be another sunrise =]
btw, the above photo was taken while on music tour, while on a MOVING bus. hahahaha, SKILL xDD XP