school reopens tomorrow. the final year of secondary education, the final year of being in a class, in a grade, the final year of being in such a bubble of security - it's just homework and assignments, tests and exams... *shrug*

i know i'm going to make this year count. it will =] and really, looking back, it's never the results that matter. it's the stress, the worry, and the support, the friendships; the activities and events; the bonding and everything which goes on in between that makes the difference. and results have always been a gift - nothing of my own doing, but all from God's wonderful blessings ^^

this i shall resolve to remember: work hard, but never forget loving and giving and serving - and i'll never sacrifice the latter for the former. in the end it's about priorities, and balancing the knowledge that studying and doing well is honouring God, with the realisation that a lot of the time, i forget it's for God... and then i overdo it. but i'm determined that this year i'll continue to walk closer with Him, and in all things i shall trust and have faith, continually seeking His will, knowing that He will guide me ^^

it will be an awesome year! hahahaha =] ISCF is changing quite a bit in terms of organisation, but it's so exciting~! geoff and tiff have left (which is really saddening ><") but then there's phil and simon and rowena and maybe becky! BECKY! ^^ (and becky's going out with phil. i'm starting to see a trend in the leaders we get here at ruse *coughcough* =D)

9/10 FOCUS will be uber fun with lil - lil was like, "hey, we should do topicals that all start with the letter P!" "I LOVE IT! but will it work???" and it's amazing that between us we have thought of enough P words to last for 2 terms (and it's only supposed to be for 1 term T_T) lil said the letter P just randomly popped into her head, and hmm.. it's no coincidence that prep, party and prayer all start with P, HAHAHAHA XD

church services are changing this term... =( BUT. i guess thank God that at least we can still have a church service each term, and that we're still allowed to encourage people to come and that yeah, there's still a timeslot in the school calendar for Him. and MUSOS! <3

wheeeeeeeeee and there's valentine's day to look forward to =D me and lil and romni are SO going to prank eddie and send her a serenade~ and lil says she'll try and pull some strings so that she gets to serenade eddie or something, WAHAHAHAHAHA XD

and yeah, the reality that this is HSC year doesn't seem to be sinking in... it'll still be the same old - jampacked, funfilled, joyful, amazing... AWESOME ^^

oh no i shouldn't be highing so much ><" but hey, this is why holidays suck XP no spending 6 hours (or more =D) a day together T_T and i guess i'm happy that i finished MOST of the work i wanted to do =/ most. XD wanted to write 2 practice english essays and get on with my music composition... but ah i have 9 more months to finish it. procrastination, <3 XD

i console myself that it is the holidays after all, and yay i shall enjoy this last day, today, and HIGH. yay HIGH XD (and no i'm not going to crash - determined to break out of this cycle! i shall HIGH and then just be NORMAL XD) ^^