i found i really like the phrase "last first" hahahahahaha XD

v-day dance was special. really, really special. perhaps i should mourn the complete lack of photos (it was quite impossible to take photos - flashing lights in the darkness and all) but *shrug* perhaps it is better to be able to dream of the scenes in memories where everything is sweet and perfect ^^

i would say that it was a milestone for me, although it's quite an unlikely event to mark out as a milestone (i'm weird like that =D)
one more thing that i'm glad i did, the whole greater than the sum of its parts. it's really amazing how in those crystalline moments of insight everything seems to be interconnected - all of it just is, has always been, and will always be - and one thing leads to another, and it just all weaves together in complex harmonies to form something so beyond our comprehension we can only dream of it.

the nonchalance that has descended upon me is quite astounding. must be the after effects of highing so much - i was wondering when i'd finally stop highing, and well, if last night didn't drain me from it, i don't know what will. hmm, i guess i'm just glad that i'm not depressed - nonchalance is definitely a welcome change. although then again, when i'm depressed i tend to bury myself under work, whereas when i'm nonchalant i just don't do anything T_T

valentine's day assembly tomorrow. XD i don't know is the identity of the poor (i use this cautiously - after all goggins was very happy last year XP) teacher who's going to get serenaded, so there's that to crank up the anticipation, hahahaha. and i guess there's a whole new level of entertainment to the whole thing when it's people in your grade up there serenading ^^

i just found videos of last year's jazz ensemble on youtube. listening to them sing makes me insanely happy o.O" i still think jazz ensemble is a miracle - for an hour and a half of practice a week, we're not that bad XP

pulse magnet by hindson is scary. and i know i'm being weird when i say i'm just that little bit in love with it ><" and moments of plastic jubilation is definitely something i want to learn some time in the distant future. emphasis on distant future =D i'm predicting that even in the distant future i'll give up halfway. quite precisely halfway as well. how anyone can write something like that, and then expect someone else to play it is beyond my imagination XP

oh, and i've realised when i'm nonchalant i ramble on and on and on about threads of this and that XD

ok. i shall attempt to get a grip on myself and go do maths. it just really doesn't help when i see the words "arbitary" and "limit" and "infinity" T_T

sigh, i shall just say goodbye with a lot of reluctance and (emotional) pain ><"