hamlet was weird. i think i would've appreciated it more if i wasn't studying it as a set text for english. seriously, english as a subject ruins everything.

i loved guildenstern and rosencrantz though XP they kept me awake XD (it wasn't actually bad at all. just that it was so warm inside and dark and factor in the fact that i haven't slept properly for a week or so and it's just so hard not to give in and fall asleep)

bondi at night seems like an altogether different place. then again, night time gives a different aura to everything. the interval was lovely - it was drizzling and it was just so refreshing to walk out onto the balcony and let the sea wind wake me up ^^ it's kind of weird how these days i compartmentalize things so much - i seem to remember small insignificant details of my day and the rest just gets filed away and fades from my memory.

this photo has been stuck in my mind all day. even though it's all blurry and everything. *shrug*
sometimes i just stop and think and i wonder if all i'm doing is really what i want to do. the end seems so far away, and it's just so hard to stick to the path and tough it out. there are those split seconds when i feel like giving up and not caring, but i know i can't bring myself to. there's so much more than just my future and my reputation resting on my actions, and i can't be selfish.

it's funny, how everyone sees HSC as the end of all things. they anticipate the relief and the joy and freedom after it's over, but it won't be the end. really. it would be interesting to become a pastry chef, i think XD *shrug*

it's so difficult to trust someone. even when you know that someone is infallible and all-knowing. sigh... but at the end of the day, i know that i will give up anything and everything, because all that i am is yours. even though it feels like i'm sliding backwards, i know you're holding on to me.

have i changed all that much? more than a year ago, i took a blind leap of faith and audaciously challenged you to show me what you could do. and you amazed me. now, i'm finally beginning to fathom just how awesome and wonderful you are, and i'm wholeheartedly convicted to live for you, but it's so, so hard... even though it's not blind faith anymore, so much more is at stake.

i wish i would stop thinking so much and just do, stop worrying, stop stressing. and i wonder if this is really what you want me to do, i wonder if i'm reading too much into things. but deep down inside i know, and i can't escape.